Chapter One

She sits in the dark naked letting it engulf her, she feels at one with the dark, the cold feels good on her naked body. It is how she feels inside dark and cold, and she has felt this way ever since that day… That day has driven her actions to this point in time. That day will drive her on for the rest of her life.

Shane picks up the bottle of Jack Daniel’s that sits behind her and pours it into the glass beside her. She picks the glass up and downs it in one go.

Shane shuts her eyes, memories of her lost love flood her mind.

The moment they first met, that moment they first fucked and there bodies became one and all seemed right with the world.

“Oh my god it’s you” 

Shane said with a note of excitement in her voice

She walked by Shane not saying a word not wanting to be any later getting to Uni.. Shane came up and grabbed her by the arm.

“Hang on can we talk... I’m Shane”

She turned and looked at Shane.

“I can’t now I’m late for Uni... Shane”

“Well at least tell me your name”

“I’m Trish... I’m sorry I really do have to go”

“Well Ok Trish... why don’t you drop by after you finish at Uni...”

Trish looked at Shane... she smiled at Trish

“Ok Shane, I’ll see you then.”

“Great!” 

Shane kissed her on the cheek...

Her hand went to her cheek.

“Bye Shane”

That moment they were in Trish’s bed room 

Shane had entered the room and locked the door behind her and dropped the key down her top.

“Now one way or another you are going to have to rip my top off.”

Trish turned so she didn’t have to look at Shane.

“I’m scared Shane, I have only found that I...”

“What? You like other women, that’s nothing to be a shamed of”

“See I found this porn mag of my dads”

“Let me guess Trish it made things clear to you what you want out of life...

Trish nodded 

"Sure masturbating over porn mags eases the sexual tension but there is nothing quite like the real thing" 

Trish looked at Shane, she knew she wanted her and that Shane wanted her in return, it was time to become who she always felt she was to stop being scared of what she felt inside.

Shane grabbed Trish and they passionately kissed. 

“Please be gentle it’s my first time”

"OK... Get your clothes off Trish" 

Shane started to remove her clothes, Trish stood up and undone her belt and kicked her boots off. She let her trousers fall to the ground and Trish stepped out of them and removed her top, still keeping her underwear on as some kind of defense, some kind of barrier. 

Trish looked at Shane who she stood there naked in all her glory, she smiled at Trish. 

"What's the mater my breast not to your liking" 

Asks Shane

"No they are beautiful" 

Trish walked over and placed her hands tenderly on them. 

"You can kiss and suck on them to your hearts delight" 

"Oh Shane fuck me" 

Trish and Shane passionately embraced, and as they kissed they stumbled across the floor and fell onto the bed. Shane ran her fingers through her hair 

"You ready to experience something like you never thought existed Trish" 

"Shut up and kiss me Shane"

Then just like a film breaking the beautiful images are replaced by the image of Trish’s cold lifeless body beaten, bruised and raped. The image of her in Shane’s arms holding her just wishing to have the power to bring her back to life. Then the shadowed face of her killer looking down at her then pointing the gun at Shane then pulling the trigger and putting her down like a dog and leaving her for dead.

Shane’s eye dart open and Shane picks up the gun and pulls the slide back and puts it under her chin… Just one shot and she could be at peace, she could be with her lover Trish where ever she is for the rest of eternity.

Shane slowly pulls back on the trigger and can feel it slowly creeping back. Just a little fervor and you can be at peace, just a second of pain and then blissful peace. But as with every night this happens Shane can’t go that bit fervor. She drops the gun and starts to cry the tears running down her cheeks then dripping down onto her breast and making there way down her body.

Shane gets up off the floor and picks up the bottle of Jack Daniel’s and takes a swig from it. What would Trish think if she could see her now? Shane slips on her jeans and buttons up her fly then slips on her black t-shirt.